Weight Loss or Pizza

I feel silly that I even tried this, but I figured what could it hurt to try. Let’s jump back a few steps then I’ll tell you what I did.

phigyugqpvu-bruno-nascimento.jpgBefore I got pregnant, I had lost 30lbs, but after pregnancy and a few years later, I have that weight back plus 10. I hate it. I want to lose the weight again, but I don’t think I feel the same motivation as I did before for a couple of a reasons, nor do I have (or maybe even want to make) the time to prepare meals ahead of time.

Before I became pregnant, my willpower and desire to lose weight was so strong. I stuck to the diet so strictly and worked out just as astringently. I had such determination and grit. Now, not so much. After losing the weight and becoming pregnant, I ended up with gestational diabetes and on another strict diet to control my blood sugar. I didn’t mind the diet, but while pregnant, I wanted pizza so badly! I love my daughter more than pizza, so I stuck to the diet as much as I could and managed to keep my sugar in check then deliver a happy, average size baby! During that time of deprivation, though, I think budded this desire to eat all the foods I couldn’t have. Fast forward to now, and you see my problem. I missed chocolate and pizza!

Time on the other hand is honestly _0jpjeqtsyg-carissa-ganbecause of what I would rather do than cooking and preparing food. I’d rather be playing with my daughter, taking her places, experiencing the world with her than cooking. I’d rather watch a movie with my husband, write a novel, or go out with friends than Pyrex my meals for the week. Lastly, I’d much rather SLEEP than workout. Thus, my dilemma.

I did some research, and like a silly, desperate person, I ordered a diet fad pill called Nutri-Fast Garcinia and Braggs Apple Cider Vinegar. I tried so hard to drink the apple cider vinegar, but I just can’t make myself do it! I literally almost gag every time. I got it down this morning, but at lunch, I just couldn’t do it again. The pill is easy to take, but will it be enough? I’m trying to eat healthier, smaller portions, and I want to get back on my elliptical, but time is always against me. I have a stand-up desk at work now, so I’m hoping that will help as well, but I think I just need to bite the bullet, and find my motivation to just get it done! I know its possible, so I just need to want to do it. (But I’m giving up on the ACV.)

What are your weight loss secrets? Have you tried the apple cider vinegar trick?

Need to Decompress

I have always said that I am a gluten for punishment, and I live up to it regularly. I find new ways to add on to my plate, and eventually, I get so overloaded that I have to take a step back, regroup, and figure out how to tackle everything I promised to take on. This is definitely one of those moments. I am looking for my center then trying to add things slowly back into the mix to find the balance I lost somewhere along the way.

The good news is that I am scheduled to graduate this time next year with my Bachelor’s degree from SNHU (Southern New Hampshire University), so that will be one large chunk of weight off my shoulders. I also just finished another certification program at work, so I am officially a CAP-TA through IAAP. See a previous post for more information about them. My daughter is hinting at wanting to be potty-trained, so that will be another alleviating moment once she masters that feat. All in all, some things will be falling off my scale here shorty, so I am trying to see the finish line through the haze of the bombarding present.photo-1473624566182-509e437512f4.jpg

Through all the chaos that seems to happening around me, I have tried multiple times to pick up the diet and workout plan I had successfully been on before I became pregnant, but to no avail. I’ve come to determine that there just isn’t enough time in the day to deal with everything I have taken on, and try to diet and exercise as heavily I had been pre baby. I don’t have time to make a breakfast or lunch, so I grab a protein shake and whatever Lean Cuisine I can find before hitting the road. I tried doing it the night before, but again, I don’t have time between dinner, bath, and bedtime routine if I want to get to bed at a decent hour and/or have some “mommy time” or pay any attention to my husband.

So I did what any mom would. I scoured the internet for what other moms do when they want to diet and exercise with a full plate of commitments. I found that you are either a “fit mom” or an “excuse mom”, and I was definitely an “excuse mom”. These type of moms are the ones that come up with a whole handful of reasons as to why they can’t lose weight or diet while the “fit moms” have ab muscles and tiny waists, and say that “excuse moms” are just lazy.

How about I’m just a mom trying to do the best I can for my child? I may not be taking care of myself as well as I should in the diet and exercise aspect, but I am filling my heart full of memories, and trying to better myself through education and hard-work in my career to provide the best life I can for my daughter. That may not make me a “fit mom”, but that sure as hell doesn’t make me an “excuse mom”, either.

I digress on my rant, but I hope I leave everyone with the idea that life comes in stages. Right now, my stage is self-enlightenment through education. Maybe as my daughter gets older and more independent, and I finally add a diet and exercise plan to my balancing act, then it will be healthier mom time. Until then, I’ll just enjoy making memories.photo-1466699514193-d2327ed2cccb.jpg