Holidays Are Upon Us

This time of year is always busy for me and my family. With the release of my new novel, Alyeska, and the various other events in our lives, I’m already stressing thinking about it!photo-1421906375741-f6bda4abe433.jpg

It starts with hubby’s birthday mid-November which I always try and make a big deal because you only turn your age once. There’s always a lot of poking and prodding in order to figure out what he would actually like to do for his big day, not to mention what he would like as a gift. He literally changes his mind on both accounts at least a dozen times before we have anything concrete in place a week before.

Next is Thanksgiving, and as we all know, that’s an undertaking in and of itself. A tradition I tried to start when my daughter was born was having the event at our house with all extended family and segment the meal preparations between us. That way everyone could spend the holiday together, and we wouldn’t have to run around visiting a bunch of different places. Due to some work related scheduling issues that is out the window this year.

It’s going to be a year of endurance like when hubby and I first ventured out on our own. We had a total of four Thanksgiving events and five for Christmas. Not necessarily a good thing, but events have become less, so it should only be two, maybe three events for Thanksgiving and Christmas this year.

Then comes my daughter’s birthday. We normally (I say normally even though we’ve only had one birthday for her so far) have her party early in the month due to travel during the holidays. Her first birthday, I went all out and invited way too many people! Not that I didn’t love each and every one of them for being there, but it was just very stressful to plan, organize, and host. I feel like I barely got to spend any time with my daughter on her special day.

This year I plan to keep things a bit lower key. Fewer people, less decorating, just more focus on my daughter! I have all the decorations I plan on doing, so all I need is food and drinks. Well, and to send out the invite.

Finally, Christmas. I have family that live about four hours away, so twice a year we go visit, and Christmas is one of those times. We will make the trip and spend two nights away from home then travel back on Christmas Eve in time for Santa to arrive at our house for Christmas morning. That day will be spent with my in-laws and hubby’s extended family then a day or two after with mine. family-in-snow

I haven’t even begun to shop yet! I am absolutely determined to not think about Christmas until Black Friday at the earliest. I won’t go out shopping during that mess, having worked in retail before, but I might start getting ideas for gifts in all the sale catalogs from my comfy couch.

The holidays are upon us, and with everything this time of year brings, I try to remind myself to enjoy it in the midst of the chaos. It really is a beautiful time year that brings families together, and in a blink of an eye, its over then we’ll be celebrating the New Year. AH! Haven’t even dared to think that far ahead!

Drying Out My Mind

I’m starting to feel as if my mind won’t shut off. I have all these thoughts and feelings just swirling within my brain like a dark, daunting twister that I can’t shut off. It is literally starting to make me feel like Atlas, just not with the world on my shoulders but trying to hold up my own head. I’m sure you and I both know why, with the passing of my close friend recently and she has been heavy on my heart the past few weeks, but it is really curious to me why my mind goes in these random directions rather than focused on what you would think would be the norm. 

Occasionally we will be overwhelmed, but mostly we will be enchanted. – Jean Houston 

Ha! The norm. I hear that all the time as a new mom. (How long can I consider myself a new mom before it isn’t true anymore?) If I say, oh, I’m tired, there is always someone there to say, oh, you’ll be that way until your kid is 18. It’s normal. Or if I say, man, I wish I had time to do whatever then someone always pipes up, oh, you will one day when your baby is grown. It’s just how it will be from here until they go to college. But that’s normal. 

Let me blow your mind for a second here. How about normal is synonymous with the same as everybody else, and we all know that no baby is the same as the next. In my mind, no two humans are alike, either, therefore, there is no normal. We each are trying to get through this life with the most amazing experiences we can find, and the definition of amazing is different for all of us. Wow! Take that pill with a dry mouth.  

Again, I stress the fact that my mind is uncontrollably firing in all directions. I can’t quite pinpoint where my focus is, so I feel like I am literally all over the place! This post is definitely going to be more of just getting this off my chest since for one, I missed posting this past week, and two, I can’t target exactly what I am feeling. I seriously feel like a jar of fireflies flying aimlessly and lighting randomly through the night. 1

A quiet mind is able to hear intuition over fear. 

The above is a link to an article I really needed to read right about now.  

And I just remembered that I need to do my homework. Ugh. Maybe that will help me focus my mind on something specific. A thought on a single track would be nice right about now, but I’m not sure if the light at the end of the tunnel is the sun or an oncoming train. Choo-choo!

Happy Holidays!

I enjoy the holidays like I know most people do, but every year I am reminded of its stress. I used to work in customer service as many teens usually start in their working career, so I have worked during practically every holiday including Thanksgiving day, Christmas day, and New Years day.

Leading up to those days when I was on shift, people were always so rude and wound up. If they so much as stubbed their toe by their own mishap they would snap on the closest person to them which usually was the workers like me, and it would always be my fault. Customer is always right, after all!

But then the actual holiday would arrive, and suddenly, everyone is your best friend, wishing you a Happy Holiday, and apologizing for you having to work during it. Crazy!

Now that I am older and work for a more office like company, I receive holiday pay for these days and am able to spend them at home, but I promise it is no vacation!

It’s Christmas Eve, and I’ve vacuumed, mopped, picked up, setup, and laundered all day yesterday and all morning today to prepare for tomorrow (continuation of “Life of a Housewife” duties). The past few days have been a test of holiday endurance, traveling north and back in a weekend, celebrating two Christmas’s so far and a couple of birthday’s, all while finishing wrapping and shopping for the little items I couldn’t order online! (I was finished shopping for all the big things on my list by November 30th!)

Two more days are left with a total of 3 more Christmas celebrations within, so hopefully by Thursday I can finally relax again.

Don’t get me wrong, I know the real meaning of Christmas and am reminded of it every time I give a gift and watch the receiver open it. Holidays are times of giving and togetherness, so I am not complaining about spending the time with family and enjoying the moment as they open their gifts from my husband and I, but so often, I have to remind myself during the down times like traveling and struggling with wrapping paper that the end product is always worth the stress.

I think that is the reason why people were always so rude during the days leading up to the actual holiday; they had to keep reminding themselves of the end product. I propose that we create ways for people to be reminded of the end product, the cheer that we all experience during the actual holiday moments to be carried through the entire season!

So here’s my reminder to you in hopes it will brighten your in between times: The Shoreline eBook will be $0.99 into January! Have a wonderful Holiday!