Graduation, Here I Come!

snhuI know I have been talking about it quite frequently, but I have to give an update on my schoolwork. I have less than two terms before graduation! My second to last term has already started which I am taking two courses then I have one class in my last term, and then this lady will have a Bachelor’s Degree in Business Administration!

I have worked my butt off the past almost two years, and I cannot wait to close this chapter of my life. I will have accomplished something that I honestly wasn’t sure I would ever have started again. When I finished my Associate’s Degree, I honestly thought I was done with school, but here I am, three months away from earning my Bachelor’s!

And although I love writing these posts and need them for my down time, I have homework to do! Good day!

Creating a PowerPoint “Movie”

I’m currently taking a class for my bachelor’s degree called Preparing for the Future (IDS 403). When I first signed up for it, I thought it was going to be something along the lines of personal goal setting and career path planning, but the moment I read the syllabus, I knew I had guessed way wrong.

This class has turned out to be all about technology and its influence on society, and vise versa. It is demonstrating the evolution of society and technology as two correlating factors throughout history while attempting to arm students with methods of addressing a societal problem and finding a solution through technology.IDS 403-T5272 – Wastewater Reuse Mod 6

It has been a demanding course with an extensive project broken into many “milestones”, but I am thoroughly enjoying it. Let me just say, though, I am so glad I am at the very least familiar with PowerPoint. Actually, I am a certified Microsoft Office Specialist in PowerPoint, but if I had never used PowerPoint or had very little knowledge before this class, I’m telling you right now, I wouldn’t be enjoying this course at all!

I have basically had to create a “movie” with PowerPoint using slides and voice narration. I am essentially giving a static presentation that I, luckily, don’t have to stand in front of anyone to give. I have also had to record a few video blogs which my husband would laugh and make faces at me while I was creating them, and I would in turn flick him off off-screen, but I digress.

After all this piecing together clips and voice narrating and formatting and optimizing, I have never had such respect for movie editors before in my life! Maybe this is a hidden piece to the Preparing for the Future curriculum; preparing us for lives as film editors!

Ehh. After watching and listening to my little movie, I think I will stick with my current day job..

You are important, too.

So, I thought I was back a few weeks ago, but obviously, I still had some work to do on me before I was ready to come back fully. I’m still working on me, but I think I have found A New Normal. Y’all know how much I love that phrase.

I am counting down on my final few semesters of SNHU before I graduate in October. I’ve really tried concentrating all of my free time towards these final few months as my classes have taken on a new level of dedication and commitment. My last few classes are all high level, prove what you have learned courses. I am enjoying them, but man, they are taking all of my attention outside of my job and family that I can muster.

My daughter also started a new pre-school and is going through such a growth spurt of knowledge and height, and did I mention attitude? She keeps us on our toes!

Plus now we are getting our roof replaced after a bad hail storm, our deck resurfaced, and just trying to keep up with the mountain of laundry that seems to appear weekly; it’s safe to say we are just busy! haley-phelps-119782

All in all, life has just kept going, and I’m doing all I can to keep up with it. It’s just the little moments when everything seems to be going on around me that I am trying to remember that I need to take care of me, too.

Maybe that’s the message of this post: Remembering you are important, too.

Let the Countdown Begin

Four terms left, my friends! FOUR! And I will have obtained my Bachelor’s degree. After graduating with my Associates degree in 2010, I wasn’t sure I would ever go back to school, but my husband finally motivated me to go for it. Almost two years later, I can see the finish line with four more terms left!

I think I can. I think I can. I’m almost there!

I really believe that once I graduate, not only will doors within my career open, but so will the flood gates on my creative mind. I literally work at my classes at least two hours a day, five days a week, sometimes more. It has left me feeling dry and overworked, so once I finally graduate, I can imagine a ship sailing into harbor and unleashing my determination to finish my latest project.

I probably won’t attend graduation since it is held on campus in New Hampshire, but I promise you, it will be one the happiest days of my life to finally have that diploma in hand. That one piece of paper will welcome so many new opportunities and alleviate a world of stress off of my mind. Let the countdown begin!

Engineer Your Life

I’m feeling a little drained and dry recently. I just can’t get motivated for anything. Work has been hectic. I’m making my final push toward an October graduation. And the past two weeks, my daughter has had a cold. She’s doing a lot better now, and will finally be going to school for the first time in a week. Overall, life is happening, and I’m trying to keep up, but I don’t feel like I’m getting ahead. It’s more like I’m treading water or stuck on my hamster wheel.7kkqg0eb_ti-ankush-minda

I know I have absolutely nothing to worry about. My daughter, husband, friends and family brighten my days, and I am generally in a decent mood based on my coffee intake. I just feel like I’m holding on to the caboose of my life rather than engineering the front car.

I’ve said multiple times that I’m a glutton for punishment. I can’t help it. I like being busy, but this is one of those times I think I need to pull back, evaluate my commitments, and find my direct path rather than this haphazard road.

My advice to you, my friends: Be the engineer in your own life. Steer the train as directly as you can toward your goals and leave the rest behind.

Easier said than done, I’m finding, but as with anything, it’ll just take time, and a few more I think I can’s. Choo choo!

Need to Decompress

I have always said that I am a gluten for punishment, and I live up to it regularly. I find new ways to add on to my plate, and eventually, I get so overloaded that I have to take a step back, regroup, and figure out how to tackle everything I promised to take on. This is definitely one of those moments. I am looking for my center then trying to add things slowly back into the mix to find the balance I lost somewhere along the way.

The good news is that I am scheduled to graduate this time next year with my Bachelor’s degree from SNHU (Southern New Hampshire University), so that will be one large chunk of weight off my shoulders. I also just finished another certification program at work, so I am officially a CAP-TA through IAAP. See a previous post for more information about them. My daughter is hinting at wanting to be potty-trained, so that will be another alleviating moment once she masters that feat. All in all, some things will be falling off my scale here shorty, so I am trying to see the finish line through the haze of the bombarding present.photo-1473624566182-509e437512f4.jpg

Through all the chaos that seems to happening around me, I have tried multiple times to pick up the diet and workout plan I had successfully been on before I became pregnant, but to no avail. I’ve come to determine that there just isn’t enough time in the day to deal with everything I have taken on, and try to diet and exercise as heavily I had been pre baby. I don’t have time to make a breakfast or lunch, so I grab a protein shake and whatever Lean Cuisine I can find before hitting the road. I tried doing it the night before, but again, I don’t have time between dinner, bath, and bedtime routine if I want to get to bed at a decent hour and/or have some “mommy time” or pay any attention to my husband.

So I did what any mom would. I scoured the internet for what other moms do when they want to diet and exercise with a full plate of commitments. I found that you are either a “fit mom” or an “excuse mom”, and I was definitely an “excuse mom”. These type of moms are the ones that come up with a whole handful of reasons as to why they can’t lose weight or diet while the “fit moms” have ab muscles and tiny waists, and say that “excuse moms” are just lazy.

How about I’m just a mom trying to do the best I can for my child? I may not be taking care of myself as well as I should in the diet and exercise aspect, but I am filling my heart full of memories, and trying to better myself through education and hard-work in my career to provide the best life I can for my daughter. That may not make me a “fit mom”, but that sure as hell doesn’t make me an “excuse mom”, either.

I digress on my rant, but I hope I leave everyone with the idea that life comes in stages. Right now, my stage is self-enlightenment through education. Maybe as my daughter gets older and more independent, and I finally add a diet and exercise plan to my balancing act, then it will be healthier mom time. Until then, I’ll just enjoy making memories.photo-1466699514193-d2327ed2cccb.jpg

Drying Out My Mind

I’m starting to feel as if my mind won’t shut off. I have all these thoughts and feelings just swirling within my brain like a dark, daunting twister that I can’t shut off. It is literally starting to make me feel like Atlas, just not with the world on my shoulders but trying to hold up my own head. I’m sure you and I both know why, with the passing of my close friend recently and she has been heavy on my heart the past few weeks, but it is really curious to me why my mind goes in these random directions rather than focused on what you would think would be the norm. 

Occasionally we will be overwhelmed, but mostly we will be enchanted. – Jean Houston 

Ha! The norm. I hear that all the time as a new mom. (How long can I consider myself a new mom before it isn’t true anymore?) If I say, oh, I’m tired, there is always someone there to say, oh, you’ll be that way until your kid is 18. It’s normal. Or if I say, man, I wish I had time to do whatever then someone always pipes up, oh, you will one day when your baby is grown. It’s just how it will be from here until they go to college. But that’s normal. 

Let me blow your mind for a second here. How about normal is synonymous with the same as everybody else, and we all know that no baby is the same as the next. In my mind, no two humans are alike, either, therefore, there is no normal. We each are trying to get through this life with the most amazing experiences we can find, and the definition of amazing is different for all of us. Wow! Take that pill with a dry mouth.  

Again, I stress the fact that my mind is uncontrollably firing in all directions. I can’t quite pinpoint where my focus is, so I feel like I am literally all over the place! This post is definitely going to be more of just getting this off my chest since for one, I missed posting this past week, and two, I can’t target exactly what I am feeling. I seriously feel like a jar of fireflies flying aimlessly and lighting randomly through the night. 1

A quiet mind is able to hear intuition over fear. 

The above is a link to an article I really needed to read right about now.  

And I just remembered that I need to do my homework. Ugh. Maybe that will help me focus my mind on something specific. A thought on a single track would be nice right about now, but I’m not sure if the light at the end of the tunnel is the sun or an oncoming train. Choo-choo!