This is not a New Year’s Resolution!

I repeat, this is not a New Year’s resolution! I am posting this the day after New Year’s for that very specific reason. 

While for some people, resolutions work well, for more than most, the connotation surrounding these yearly proclamations is destined to fail. There is just something about the tradition that sets people to either give up or lose focus halfway through the year and result in failure. I’m not saying everyone, so if you made a or multiple resolutions this year, best of luck to you, and I wholeheartedly hope you succeed. I, on the other hand, will not be partaking in this tradition because we have all seen how mine have gone over the years.

I’m sure I have made in painstakingly clear by now that I am not calling these resolutions, I have made a few promises to myself that just so happened to fall at the beginning of this year. 

I will publish my next novel. I want to have a new novel out before summer which shouldn’t be too difficult as I am almost done with it.

I will go back on my diet, the one I was on before I got pregnant, and I will get back to a healthy weight that I am happy with. I’m really not focusing on any certain number, but more how happy I feel in my own skin again. As long as the number keeps going down throughout this journey, my focus will be being more happy and healthy.

I will travel this year with two specific locations I’m already thinking of. Both are places I have never been, but one will take a little more doing than another.

And, finally, I will no longer allow anyone to influence my mood or feelings. There are certain people that truly matter in my life and others who either shouldn’t matter or are choosing not to matter. I will not allow anyone who doesn’t want to be part of my life, nor anyone who shouldn’t have any impact on my life stress or agitate me answer much as I can help anymore.

I’m making myself laugh now as I reread this because it sounds dangerously close to a New Year’s resolution, but I think the difference is that these are realities I know are possible. It all comes down to how willing I am to make them happen.

Weight Loss or Pizza

I feel silly that I even tried this, but I figured what could it hurt to try. Let’s jump back a few steps then I’ll tell you what I did.

phigyugqpvu-bruno-nascimento.jpgBefore I got pregnant, I had lost 30lbs, but after pregnancy and a few years later, I have that weight back plus 10. I hate it. I want to lose the weight again, but I don’t think I feel the same motivation as I did before for a couple of a reasons, nor do I have (or maybe even want to make) the time to prepare meals ahead of time.

Before I became pregnant, my willpower and desire to lose weight was so strong. I stuck to the diet so strictly and worked out just as astringently. I had such determination and grit. Now, not so much. After losing the weight and becoming pregnant, I ended up with gestational diabetes and on another strict diet to control my blood sugar. I didn’t mind the diet, but while pregnant, I wanted pizza so badly! I love my daughter more than pizza, so I stuck to the diet as much as I could and managed to keep my sugar in check then deliver a happy, average size baby! During that time of deprivation, though, I think budded this desire to eat all the foods I couldn’t have. Fast forward to now, and you see my problem. I missed chocolate and pizza!

Time on the other hand is honestly _0jpjeqtsyg-carissa-ganbecause of what I would rather do than cooking and preparing food. I’d rather be playing with my daughter, taking her places, experiencing the world with her than cooking. I’d rather watch a movie with my husband, write a novel, or go out with friends than Pyrex my meals for the week. Lastly, I’d much rather SLEEP than workout. Thus, my dilemma.

I did some research, and like a silly, desperate person, I ordered a diet fad pill called Nutri-Fast Garcinia and Braggs Apple Cider Vinegar. I tried so hard to drink the apple cider vinegar, but I just can’t make myself do it! I literally almost gag every time. I got it down this morning, but at lunch, I just couldn’t do it again. The pill is easy to take, but will it be enough? I’m trying to eat healthier, smaller portions, and I want to get back on my elliptical, but time is always against me. I have a stand-up desk at work now, so I’m hoping that will help as well, but I think I just need to bite the bullet, and find my motivation to just get it done! I know its possible, so I just need to want to do it. (But I’m giving up on the ACV.)

What are your weight loss secrets? Have you tried the apple cider vinegar trick?