Working on me.

It’s been a while since I have posted, mainly because life has just gotten a bit hectic, but I need to write this out.

There are times in our lives when we realize we have taken on so much that we are sinking our own ship. We have to bail it out to save ourselves, take a desperate gasp of air, and regroup before even considering which direction to head into next. It’s times like these we begin to think of the loved ones in our hearts and our journey thus far. We hold on tight to the constants, to the known pieces of our beings, as we wait for the storm to pass and our boat to right itself again.

Once we have finally caught our breath and the horizon is properly placed in our sights once more, only then can we search out the star to lead us home. Only then can we navigate what all lies before us, the unknown destinations waiting just beyond the water’s edge. Only then can the world feel tameable as we search for the next piece to ourselves we didn’t even know was missing.

This, my friends, is where I find myself now. After some time to save my ship and right my world again, I have found a piece of myself I didn’t realize I was missing. I love to write, that much I’m sure is clear, but I didn’t realize how much I love to write this blog as well as my novels. 

This blog has become a missing piece to my creative mind, an intricate piece to my writing cogwork that without it, I have found myself a little lost and overloaded. Not sinking, mind you, just knowing I have a hole somewhere within me which is only filled by emptying my brain every few days. 

Which brings me to my ultimate point of refusing to go any length of time again unless absolutely necessary of not writing even a small blurb on my blog. It’s the piece of me that I can express without fear of retribution. It’s the piece of me that keeps my horizon from tilting. All said and done, writing these posts are part of what keeps me going, keeps me sane, and allows me to be creative. Without out, I’m just a stuffed drain, wishing for relief. 

On that note, I’m back. Let’s do this.

2017 Goals

Last year, I had planned on setting goals each month with a long term goal as the grand prize. I think I made it through four months of the process, but like most “resolution-ists”, it kind of fell to the wayside. This year, I have some ideas of what I would like to accomplish in 2017, but some aren’t fully fleshed out just yet. I’m thinking I might create a few monthly goals, but I also have some that I would like to set for the overall year as well.happy-new-year-2017-images

This month:

-Figure out how to lose weight. I’ll expand on this in another post.
-Write 10K words on my new project.
-Continue to Tweet daily and blog at least weekly.
-Have a date night.

Overall year:

-Travel. I have a wedding to attend in Colorado, so this should be easy, but I also want to go to Florida. We’ll see what we can manage.
-Take a vacation. This kind of goes with the above, but I also want to make sure that I take the time to enjoy a break from the norm.
-Graduate. My bachelor’s degree is so close. I will finish it this year!

We’ll see how it all pans out, and I promise I’ll keep you’ll posted. After the excruciating year 2016 turned out to be, I’m crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

 

New Year, New Resolutions

I’m not one to follow the fad of creating resolutions only to break them three to four months down the road. I have very strong will-power exhibited by my strict diet before I was pregnant, my strict diabetic diet while I was pregnant, and now my more lax, but still stringent breastfeeding diet. One of my biggest pet peeves in life is for someone, including myself, to say they are going to do something, but then do not follow through. It irks me to no end, and I eventually lose trust in the person. If it is me that is not completing what I set out to do then I become my own WORST critic. (Yes, I mean WORST!)

So this year, I plan on doing things a little differently. Instead of setting goals for the entire year, I will be setting goals each month with a long term goal as the grand prize, but not the must meet point. Thus, alleviating myself the stress of not following through if I do not meet the ultimate goal.

January’s goals:

-Write 10,000 words on my work-in-progress novel (that should complete it, but we will see where the characters take me!)
-Blog weekly =)
-At least one date with Hubby
-10 minutes of me time a day (in which I will probably blog or write)
-Wean my daughter (already started, but I would like to finish this item this month)
       and if I complete the above:
-Lose 8lbs. (I know, it’s on everyone’s list, but I’m serious!)

I’ll start with these, celebrate the items I complete (which I really need to learn to do), and see where I end up next month. Celebrating the things I do complete rather than focusing on the things I don’t will be an area I know I will struggle, but by creating these mini goals, I am hoping that I can learn what it means to win battles rather than focusing on the war. Seeing the big picture is one thing; obsessing over it for a year is madness.

Here’s to hoping 2016 will be better than 2015. Cheers!