Without Him by Christina Grimmie

I am in love with this song right now. I know I said that like a week ago about I won’t give up by Jason Mraz, but this song is really just hitting my feels this week. Call me fickle, but it’s just fitting my mood, I guess.

I have talked for years about a Muse bringing me inspiration in many different forms. From fellow authors, poets, movies, and music, my Muse tickles me through various avenues. My current project I am working on is about a college age student who is experiencing a life she only dreamed of, but ends up unfolding into something she could have never imagined. Vague enough for you?

Well, as a romance writer, you know there is a love interest. He wants the girl, but believes she deserves more. This is where this song is coming into play I think. Our heroine can’t imagine life without him and wants only him, but there are so many outside forces and antagonists playing against them, they have to fight for their love. Christina Grimmie is really speaking to my Muse, and for that, I thank her wherever she peacefully is now.tragedia-halara-lottek-a-fiatal-enekesnot-christina-grimmie-t-06110145

This young woman was so talented. Her voice was beautiful, and her music actually holds more meaning than basic materialistic mindsets. She was close to her family and sweet to her fans. Christina Grimmie is sorely missed, but her music is still inspiring me today. For that, again I say, thank you.

Without Him by Christinia Grimmie

Movie Review: Hacksaw Ridge

125-hacksaw-ridgeI love this movie! Regardless your feelings towards Mel Gibson who directed the film, if you enjoy war movies, movies about historical events, or even just courageous people performing heroic deeds, this movie is a must see! Mind you, there is a lot of death, destruction, and carnage as it is set in World War II – Asian theatre, and our hero is a military medic. If that is not your cup of tea then you may want to just do your research on Hacksaw Ridge and Private Doss rather than watch this film.

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Book Review: How To Catch A Wild Viscount by Tessa Dare

23006658How to Catch a Wild Viscount
Author: Tess Dare
Rating: 4

Overview: Luke Trenton, Viscount Merritt, returned from war a changed man. Battle stripped away his civility and brought out his inner beast. There is no charm or tenderness in him now; only dark passions and a hardened soul. He has nothing to offer the starry-eyed, innocent girl who pledged her heart to him four years ago.

But Cecily Hale isn’t a girl any longer. She’s grown into a woman–one who won’t be pushed away. She and Luke are guests at a house party when a local legend captures their friends’ imaginations. While the others plunge into the forest on a wild goose…er, stag chase, Cecily’s on the hunt for a man. She has only a few moonlit nights to reach the real Luke…the wounded heart she knows still beats inside the war-ravaged body…or she could lose him to the darkness forever.

This is a novella of approximately 20,000 words, or 80 pages. It was originally published under the title The Legend of the Werestag.

Review: As a working mother in school and a whole bunch more responsibilities and must do’s, it is rare that I actually get a moment to read a novel these days, so novellas are my jam right now. They are just long enough to really feel a connection to the story and its characters, but short enough that I can actually read most of them in one sitting when I actually have the time.

I have read many of Tessa Dare’s historical romances in the past and this novel does not disappoint. A steamy romance with a back story of innocent love, add in a bit of magic and unrequited love, and you have a beautiful quick read. The romance was definitely steamy and well written, but every time there was a moment between the two lovebirds, it would immediately end with an argument or hurt feelings. I understand Luke was trying to push her away, but what about the after-glow? Can’t there be just a moment where he allowed himself to revel in the moment?

My only other comment would be on the actual historical aspect of the novel. I feel like that is a loose subcategory for this novel as the only real bit of history is the date and war Luke fought in. It really did not affect the story, mind you, but it just felt a little forced rather than just a setting piece.

Now the Werestag bit was very interesting. I would love to see a fan fiction or even have Tess Dare do a piece on this idea. Maybe have it be written by Portia. That would be a very interesting read. I haven’t read a paranormal book in a while!

Black Sails Episode 404

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***SPOILERS***YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED***

There is something really wrong and off about what is going on in the most recent episodes since Jack and crew’s capture. I just don’t understand how they can be so resolved to being the Governor’s prisoners. It just seemed like their surrender was too easy, too simple. There has to be a greater plan!

Well, after this episode, I am having a very hard time believing in my own theory. The Governor has Blackbeard’s Man O’War Queen Anne’s Revenge and more than half of the crew was slaughtered in the belly of the Governor’s ship as Jack slowly picked each member to fight until death. This storyline is really irritating me at how basic it is. If there really is no greater plan than to die and/or be turned over to the English in the New World, then I have no faith for the last episode of this series or just the overall story ending as a whole.

John is really playing up his part as Long John Silver and throwing his weight around, but as always, Flint one up’s him. Flint giving himself over, promising Eleanor the Urca cash, is another silly decision. How the heck does it tie in with Treasure Island? If it is to be a true origin story to Treasure Island, then Flint won’t be giving her the prize, but as we have seen in Blackbeard’s death, Black Sails isn’t totally true to the epic novel. I just can’t understand why he would make this promise to Eleanor without having a slip knot in the tie.

There was a scene of an absolute grotesque beating. I don’t do well with torture. This beating was because the Underhill plantation had been taken by Billy’s crew and to show the other slaves what would happen should they rise up. Well, that kind of backfired because they did just that. Led by Julis (I believe his name is), slaves are now rising against the British, but also against the pirates with the sole mission to take Nassau for themselves. Why bring in a new foe this late in the game?

The exchange between Eleanor and Max after she is traded for twenty pirates is odd to me. Eleanor asks Max where they would have gone had she said yes when they had been together. I can’t help, but think that Eleanor is somehow regretting or weighing her options for escaping Nassau or taking it back from the pirates. The only thing that really throws a wrench in my theory is that she’s pregnant! I really don’t understand why they would throw this in the mix. It makes no sense unless her mindset is changing to survival mode for her child rather than desire to control Nassau which might be happening with this character since she made the deal with Flint.

I can’t say that I am particularly happy with how this season is playing out especially since there seems to be no real direction or plan deeper than controlling Nassau. In past episodes, it just seemed that so much more was at play between the crews and the strong-willed captains. Now it just seems so generic. I’m hoping I’m wrong and there is more that I am not seeing going on. On to the next!

 

I Won’t Give Up by Jason Mraz

16153993This song has been stuck in my head all day! I’m not sure why, maybe I heard it on the radio or in a store during Valentine’s day, but for whatever reason, I can’t stop singing it.

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I’ve read where some look to make a deeper meaning of the song, and if that’s what you need to connect whatever dots in your mind need connecting then have at it. I, on the other hand, take it on the very literal sense. My logical brain at work again.

Well, I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

Just those few lines designated as chorus hit me deep in my soul. I think I have said it before in a previous post (Find The One Who Will Lift You Up), life and love isn’t always pretty. It’s a messy, fumbling state of being chosen by two people. It’s harsh and demanding and at times completely overwhelming.

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

But it’s in those moments of hardship the choice these two individuals made to give their everything to try and be together tests their commitment. It’s in those moments of trial and tribulation that the very decision they made is second guessed and every flaw is exposed in the very foundation of the relationship.

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

It is also in these moments that another choice is brought to light, another fork in the road must be examined. Do these people continue to hold on to their original commitment and fight to remain together, or do they give in to the pressure closing in on them? Do the choose each other or choose to go on without the other?

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not, and who I am

It is only after the choice is made again to see the relationship through, to continue to fight for the love you promised to give, to not give up on just the other person involved in this promise, but to not give up on the collective you, the encompassing us, does that love continue to grow.

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up, I’m still looking up.

It is the next step after renewing the promise that counts the most.prove that you are giving all of your love, all of yourself to your significant other. Prove to not only just the other person, but to yourself as well that you are and always will be even if the skies get rough.

Well, I won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We’ve got a lot to learn (we’re alive, we are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (and we’re worth it)

Because God knows we’re worth it. God knows that our love is worth it.

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And continue to move forward together through every storm. Continue to choose each other and never hang your head in defeat. Give all of yourself to your commitment of love, and, God knows, it’s worth it.

I won’t give up by Jason Mraz

The Walking Dead Midseason Premiere

I have been a fan of The Walking Dead since the beginning. Rick Grimes is my dude, and Carl is my boy. When the show first began, I was hooked hard and couldn’t wait for each episode. There have been a few very disturbing scenes as well as lackluster screen writing along the way, but ultimately, I have remained loyal to the show up until recently.

During the whole Glenn debacle, I have honestly felt a little stung by the franchise that they would treat their fans that way, but they always find a way to drag me back. Since the entire gory scene in the woods, Negan has really come into his role as the new big bad even with some not so villainy lines, and he has become the sole reason I have come back to the show following this mid-season break.the-walking-dead-season-7-rick-lincoln-michonne-gurira-cci-key-art-1200x707-1

Seriously, though, these writers are not doing this series any favors right now. Did you hear some of the lines in the subject episode? CORNY! Rick gets back to Alexandria, and he and Sasha exchange like three words that are the epitome of cheesy acting. I don’t fault the actors though because I know what they are capable of, but the writings is taking a turn for the worse.

I just hope Negan sticks around long enough to carry the show for a little while. For an older than me gentleman, he is very attractive even with his cocky, domineering attitude. He is really hitting his role for me as of recently, but maybe I am just trying to fill the hole Daryl has left due to their lack of designated time to the beautiful Norman Reedus. Sigh.

Oh, the thinks I am thinking.

My daughter loves one of Dr. Seuss’s books, “Oh, the thinks you can think.” As most Dr. Seuss books are, this one is full of silly rhymes and random items thrown together, but it is also a parent’s nightmare because of how all over the place it is. It jumps from simple questions to complex, compound sentences with a rhyme scheme that doesn’t exactly match the previous page. It’s hard to find a rhythm. Certainly, not one of my favorite Seussian books, but she enjoys it.oh-thinks-you-can-think-dr-seuss

It does makes me think (see what I did there?) of how in the world that man could come up with such crazy, yet coherent books that even children love. I then let that thought train spiral into what and how my brain thinks, how my thoughts are formed, and how I see the world. Do I see it in a mix array of things that are all thrown together and forced into insane yet manageable cohesiveness like Dr. Seuss?

Nahh. I’m more of a logical mind in the sense that everything has its place, but I will admit there are times where my brain processes and clumps thoughts together so effortlessly that even I sometimes feel lost on how the train got to that station.

Our minds are such curious things, and I think I’ve just learned to appreciate the genius in Dr. Seuss’s book. It’s like a challenge to not only the child reading the book, but to the adult. I think even Disney once said that “Even adults were children once.” Maybe they are both on to something. As we become adults, we may need a reminder to think more like children, with an open mind to all the thinks we can think.

Now I’m thinking of planning a trip to Disney. Where’d that train come from?

Movie Review: Arrival

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IMdB: When mysterious spacecraft touch down across the globe, an elite team – led by expert linguist Louise Banks – is brought together to investigate. As mankind teeters on the verge of global war, Banks and the team race against time for answers – and to find them, she will take a chance that could threaten her life, and quite possibly humanity.

The above descripition is way more dramatic than I actually think the movie was, and I’m really not sure what chance they are referring to. Silly, IMdB. It could have been a decent movie, but it was ruined for me.

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Black Sails – Episode 403

I’m just going to jump right on in here and give you the lowdown on the third episode of this season.

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This episode was fantastic and gruesome and fast-paced all in one exhilarating hour worth of pirate drama. I liked this episode, but it almost seemed like they crammed as much as they could into it.

Max and the general guy that I didn’t even care to remember the name of because he was such an ass get into a verbal battle where he insists on her delivering her informants or else be charged with treason and death. Max blows him off and further fortifies why I love her character so much. Loyal and strong no matter the price!

The Governor lays a trap for Blackbeard, Jack, and Anne and overtakes them. He then tortures Blackbeard until finally putting a bullet in his head. What a minute here! Captain Edward Teach, Blackbeard, the man, myth and legend does not die by the hands of England in Nassau or anywhere near it! He is in Treasure Island, for pete’s sake! How could they possibly kill him off?! The entire time he was captured and being drug beneath the ship I was waiting for something to happen, a plan to unfold, but nothing happened! Blackbeard died! How?! It was so rushed and glanced over, they hardly gave him the due camera time for a dignified death! Don’t get the wrong, the torture scene turned my stomach, but even that seemed rushed.

Then we get to the battle in Nassau, and again, so rushed! The general jerk dude didn’t listen to Elenaor when she gave him very clear advice. John Silver and Flint walk into the hanging square and wreck the place. At first it looks like no one has their back, but then people join behind them, even Billy shows up! Billy is obviously there because he supports John, but this will be interesting to see how the dynamic between him and Flint plays out. Finally, Hands slots the generals throat and the episode ends as the fighting resumes on the streets.

Overall, it was a great episode, but again too much too fast! That one battle int eh streets should have been played out way longer than it was. Even Blackbeard’s final moments Gould have been granted longer time than five minutes! Silly writers. I just hope it means they are gearing up for the finally episodes. Going to miss this show.

Movie Review: Deepwater Horizon

If you have never heard of Deepwater Horizon, then my friend, you live under a rock and/or are a vampire. If it’s the latter then I’m glad we’re friends. It was a strange coincidence that my husband and I watched this literally the same week I had a discussion board assignment on the tragedy. There was obvious dramatization to some of it and inaccuracies, but overall I really think this movie was very well done.

mv5botezndu0otgxm15bml5banbnxkftztgwnja0odm2ote-_v1_sy1000_cr006741000_al_IMdB: In April 2010, there is no oil exploration operation in the Gulf of Mexico to compare with the Deepwater Horizon oil rig with its size or sheer depth of its drilling. However, the project for the BP oil company is beset with technical difficulties to the point where the general operational supervisor, Jimmy Harrell, and his Chief Electrical Engineer, Mike Williams, are concerned potentially dangerous trouble is brewing. Unfortunately, visiting BP executives, frustrated by the project’s long delays, order curtailed site inspections and slanted system tests to make up for lost time even as Harrell, Williams and his team helplessly protest for the sake of proper safety. On April 20, the workers’ fears are realized in the worst possible way when the rig’s various structural and system flaws spark a catastrophic cascade of failures that would create a massive blowout and explosion that threatens them all, even as it also begins the worst environmental disaster in US history.

I’m not going to claim any spoilers because as a proclaimed above, the Deepwater Horizon tragedy has been deemed the worst environmental disaster in US history, so you can pretty much guess what happens in the movie. If you can’t, here’s some light reading for you: 100 Days of the BP Spill. I absolutely loved this timeline as it was part of the reading for my discussion board in my Social Responsibility in Business class.

Mark Wahlberg had a great performance in this movie, but let’s be honest, when does he not perform well. I wonder if he spent any time with the man he was casted to play, but if you watched the CSPAN coverage of the Senate hearings on this tragedy, you heard his story already. Mike Williams stood before a selected committee and recounted the night of April 20, 2010 when Deepwater Horizon exploded and 11 people were lost at sea. This courageous man did everything he could to help his fellow shipmates, but this incident could have been completely avoided had BP not been so greedy.

I was a little wary that this movie was going to be a big political circus, but it was honestly just the retelling of a man’s story with a bit of Hollywood dramatization thrown in. It will make you mad, I promise you that, but not for the wrong reasons. The families that have been torn apart by this tragedy, my heart goes out to them still, even seven years later.

It was a great movie to watch, but the idea that these people had to actually go through something like this is crazy to me. It was 2010! How can something like this still happen? I’ve read where they tightened the regulations on the blowout valve to hopefully avoid another tragedy like Deepwater Horizon. Any engineers out there that can create an even better failsafe? I challenge you!