Google IT Technician Certification

I have been working on obtaining my mac-glasses for a few weeks now. And by a few weeks, I mean more than four. And by more than four, I mean a few months. And by a few, I mean three. Luckily, it stops there.

There are six modules in a course, and each of the modules has several lessons. I almost completed the first module and have started the second. The information is really thorough, and I feel like this small portion I have completed has taught me a lot already. Things like binary and building a computer from scratch. It really is interesting, but I’m moving a lot slower than I anticipated. It’s not that I’m bored with the content; I really think the reason is because of the nature of the courses.

At SNHU, even though it was an online school which allowed you to learn at your own pace, there was structure, deadlines, and someone holding you accountable. With this Google IT Technician Certification, the only person to hold you accountable is you. Sure, there are “professors” teaching you the lessons via the recorded streaming videos, but they aren’t active in your learning, checking up on you, marking down your grade if you don’t complete an assignment within the allotted week. You are literally on your own to take the lessons.

Hold myself accountable, you say? Oh, why didn’t I think of that! Wait, I did, and failed. Miserably. I need a new strategy, but I am really struggling with time management. Maybe I still have senioritis from graduating a year ago. Maybe my willpower is just depleted along with my sanity and drive to focus on anything other than making it through my day to day. Wow, that sounds like a very sad existence.

WAKE UP CALL!! I’m hearing it. I’ve got to get my big ole’ head back in the game! (Too High School Musical for you? Me too.)

To Grieve or To Mourn

migraineWith the sudden passing of one of the best friends two years ago, I have come to find that there is no right or wrong way to grieve or mourn. There is no appropriate set amount of time. There is no reason to tell anyone or to not tell everyone. How ever someone decides to cope with the sense of loss within their lives is entirely up to the individual. The thought of another anniversary of that day has brought these thoughts to the forefront of my mind because even two years later, I still grieve and mourn for the loss of my friend.

While in the throes of my mourning, I started to contemplate what grieving versus mourning really meant. Obviously, loss, sadness, emotional and mental suffering with possible physical pain, but I started to think of their actual definition and wondered if there was a significant difference in the two. What do you know? There is.

Dictionary.com says, “Grieve is the stronger word, implying deep mental suffering often endured alone and in silence but revealed by one’s aspect: to grieve over the loss (or death) of a friend. Mourn usually refers to manifesting sorrow outwardly, either with or without sincerity: to mourn publicly and wear black.”

So, I did what made sense to me. I categorized myself into a group based on the way I deal with the loss of my friend. I believe there are three types of people when it comes to feelings of loss. These types are points on a line spectrum, so there are those who may lean a little from the main point, but I’m sure most can find themselves closer to one point than another.

Boisterous Wailers

These are people who weep loudly for all to hear. They don’t care who is around, or where they are. When the mood strikes them, they will belt out their frustration with whatever sorrow has found them and force whoever or whatever is around them to feel and look the same. They throw things. They scream and curse everyone. These are the types of people who refuse to go through their pain alone, so the world will hear them during their pain.

Silent Sufferers

We all know these types of people. They are the kind who refuse to let anyone in during a time of loss. They push everyone away and insist they are dealing with their suffering when in reality, it weighs on them every moment of every day as they make their way silently through their new world of loss. You may never see these people act out, let alone discuss it. They see the world as full of pain, so why would anyone want to hear about theirs.

Hybrid Comfort Finders

I like to think I have developed a sense of the middle ground between the two aforementioned types of individuals. There are days where I just try to make it through, and there are days where I need help. There are days where I hope the neighbors don’t come to check on me and days where I can smile regardless of my heart breaking. All the days in between, the ones where I don’t believe I lean from this center ground, I find comfort in the beauty of my life. I hug my husband and daughter a little tighter. I eat an extra piece of chocolate, or watch a favorite movie. I find the things that make me happy, and for those few moments, the pain isn’t so heavy, and the world isn’t as dark.

Grieving, mourning; it’s all the same sense of loss. It’s how you make it through the day that matters.

Valerian – Movie Review

May be a little late to the party, but I figured I could give my two cents on this movie in case anyone has held out longer than I have from watching it.

The amount of money dumped into this film for its graphics must have been astronomical! Almost every “person” in this film was somehow CGI’ed to an alien species. The worlds they created were so well thought out in depth. The vivid imagery was mesmerizing as was the story once it finally got going. I can’t imagine the man-hours and time it took to produce this film.

51b1d40punl-_sy453_bo1204203200_IMDB: A dark force threatens Alpha, a vast metropolis and home to species from a thousand planets. Special operatives Valerian and Laureline must race to identify the marauding menace and safeguard not just Alpha, but the future of the universe.

I had no idea this movie was based on a French comic. How interesting! Although, that’s about as interesting as it gets. Everything I said above is true, but the WOW factor stopped at the graphics. The actors were not my favorite. The enthusiasm of the movie was a bit flat.

To come up with a universe so vast and tapped into, a universe of over a thousand inhabited worlds, is too big for my brain to comprehend. I think that is ultimately what kept my interest, the idea of the infinite. How anyone can even attempt to grasp the concept is beyond me. I feel as if my brain is leaving gravity’s tug whenever the idea of how truly expansive the universe is floats within my thoughts.

Overall, I would recommend the movie, but with the disclaimer not to go into it expecting anything award winning.

The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel – Season 2

If you didn’t know that I am absolutely in love with the Amazon series “The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel” then you don’t know me at all! I binge watched this show the week it came out, and I have missed it so much! I have been dying to know when the next season will come out, and finally Amazon has given a release date!

DECEMBER 5, 2018

No one talk to me for a week. Expect nothing out of me during this time. I will be holed up in my room every night watching this show until I have gorged on Rachel Brosnahan and Tony Shalhoub to my hearts content then immediate demise as I have to wait who know how long for the next season! Oh, the tragedy of a streaming series!

If you know nothing about this series, please allow me to enlighten you. It is magnificent!!

maisel65628816.jpgAmazon – The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, Season 1: Winner of 8 Emmy Awards. In 1958 New York, Midge Maisel’s life is on track- husband, kids, and elegant Yom Kippur dinners in their Upper West Side apartment. But when her life takes a surprise turn, she has to quickly decide what else she’s good at – and going from housewife to stand-up comic is a wild choice to everyone but her.

Amazon – The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, Season 2: After Midge’s triumph at the Gaslight, the fallout from her takedown of Sophie Lennon looms large, making her climb up the comedy ladder more challenging than ever. As the actual grind of being a comic begins to take its toll on Midge, the pressure to come clean to her family weighs on her – especially as her choices have a ripple effect on everyone around her.

BINGE, BINGE, BINGE!!

Coffee is my lifeblood

I must have a cup of coffee in the morning! You think the boogey monster is scary; you should see me without coffee. I can’t function without it. My brain refuses to wake up until my cup is empty.

Honestly, the caffeine is needed, but it is not what drives me to it. The warmth of the liquid. The swirling steam billowing from the cup. The earthy, roasted aroma soothing my muddled brain. It’s like a pep talk in a cup. A reassuring hug first thing in the morning. Coffee doesn’t judge. Coffee understands. I may look a hot mess in the morning, and the noises reverberating from my throat may sound like a terrifying monster, but coffee just smiles and says, “drink me, and I’ll turn you into a princess”.

OK, princess is a stretch, but once I’m done with that first cup, I tell you what, THE QUENN REIGNS!

OK, again, I stretch the truth, but you get the point. I drink the stuff. I do the stuff. An elixir of life! I’m too dramatic for my own good.

Can you guess how many cups I’ve had today? 🙂

My Husband’s Triumphant Thirtieth Birthday

chamberlin801911881-04938898784.jpgToday is my husband’s thirtieth birthday! He and I met when he was 15 and I was 14. Now officially marks the year when I have known him just as long as I haven’t. He lived 15 years without me, and has now lived 15 years with me. Makes us sound old, but as high school sweethearts, our milestones will be plentiful.

It’s crazy to think of our teenage selves back in high school and all the years after that we went through together. The phrase “growing together” has never made more sense as we have accomplished so much by each others sides. We have worked so hard for everything we have that I know with this monumental birthday we are heading for even greater. I can’t imagine what my life would be like without him, and I thank my lucky stars everyday that I never have to wonder.

I’ve heard people call this the “dirty thirty” birthday, but I promise you, babe, this year will be the Triumphant Thirty. I love you!

 

Guardians – Released and Rated

As the book tour ends for Guardians release, I’ve become contemplative about the journey thus far. I’ve had to answer why I came up with this story, and what the Light and darkness really mean to me. I’m not sure I will ever be able to answer the why other than I had a dream that brushed the surface of what Guardians became. My dream inspired this story, and I’ve enjoyed developing it, but why is a very heavy question.

A question I know I can answer is what the Light and darkness mean to me. That’s easy. Light is the goodness of the world, the strength to overcome any fear or temptation. Light is perfection that we all wish to achieve, and what I love most about it is Light is life, so it is within us all.

Darkness, or Midnight, is the evil of the world. It consumes people until they are controlled by it. It closely resembles someone who has succumbed to a battle of one of the deadly sins. They may deny it, but their greed, gluttony, or pride controls their every decision.

I’ve known many people who have fallen to their vices, specifically drugs, but there have been too few that have come back from their stint in darkness to a life better than before. Those with survival stories talk about being saved from their battles by finding something or someone that brought them back to the light of life. These stories have also amazed me. Thus, Light and darkness, and the basis of the why.

I’m really not this deep, but this story really speaks to the testament of human will. Riley faces darkness in ways most people never have to, but she keeps fighting to stay in the Light. Every day people battle with pain and afflictions, but we can overcome them and live a life greater we ever imagined.

Don’t forget to order your copy of Guardians today! 5 star ratings are rolling in! Vampires and werewolves could never face the shadows the Guardians battle everyday. Click here for more information.

Insomniac Rambling – Love and Greed

To be enough for someone in a world full of greed is everything.

No! Just, no!

I saw this on Instagram as a poem someone wrote (not sure who posted it, can’t find it again), and I just need to say no. No, this is wrong. So wrong you can’t make enough U-turns to make it right. Just wrong!

I can see someone attempting to make the argument that maybe they are talking about love. Love is selfless. Love is about giving your all and then some to allow the person you have the feelings for to flourish with you. Love is the opposite of greed, therefore, to have found someone who wants to give you all of themselves is a gift not to be squandered. I get it. I dig it. You’re on the right track, but the first sentence in this post does not capture the idea of unselfish love.

The first sentence goes wrong the moment it assumes you weren’t enough for someone, anyone, in this world. You are always enough! It’s just up to the other person to see it, to know your value as much as you know your own worth.

Next, I read this sentence to say that your measurement in a person’s life is in your control. Again, this is wrong. It ties into the first part, but let me dig a little deeper. Greed is a terrible affliction. Nothing is ever enough. So, to say that you should be able to measure up to that amount of endless wanting, to be able to compete with the constant yearning, and possibly be greater than the desire for more in someone else is completely out of your control. Not only do you have to selflessly give yourself over to the one you love, but they in kind must also forget all pretenses and expectations in a world of over consumption and gluttony and share their selfless love, too.

Finally, to say that finding someone who may hold you higher than all other wants and needs is everything is horribly cheap. I would never want someone who wants me more than some goal or objective they may be trying to obtain. One day, those things they once ignored may suddenly float higher than your pedastool, and then your everything is now your barely something. Only when love holds it’s own category, it’s on permanent residence in two people’s lives will that love be everything.

Go to bed, Lindsay. I know. 🙂

Guardians – Book Tour Update!

Guardians Book Blog Tour brought to you by Bewitching Book Tours is in full swing! Next stop is Momma Says: To Read or Not to Read.

Come on over and see what exclusive bits you may find. I’ll keep you updated on all the stops throughout the tour.

Don’t forget to order your copy of Guardians today! 5 star ratings are rolling in! Vampires and werewolves could never face the shadows the Guardians battle everyday. Click here for more information.

Tour schedule

November 8 Momma Says: To Read or Not to Read
November 9 Ramblings of a Book Nerd
November 12 The Book Junkie Reads (Interview)
November 13 Ramblings of a Coffee Addicted Writer
November 13 T’s Stuff (Interview)
November 14 Supernatural Central (Interview)
November 14 3 Partners in Shopping, Nana, Mommy, and Sissy, Too!

HAPPY RELEASE PARTY!