I Won’t Give Up by Jason Mraz

16153993This song has been stuck in my head all day! I’m not sure why, maybe I heard it on the radio or in a store during Valentine’s day, but for whatever reason, I can’t stop singing it.

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I’ve read where some look to make a deeper meaning of the song, and if that’s what you need to connect whatever dots in your mind need connecting then have at it. I, on the other hand, take it on the very literal sense. My logical brain at work again.

Well, I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

Just those few lines designated as chorus hit me deep in my soul. I think I have said it before in a previous post (Find The One Who Will Lift You Up), life and love isn’t always pretty. It’s a messy, fumbling state of being chosen by two people. It’s harsh and demanding and at times completely overwhelming.

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

But it’s in those moments of hardship the choice these two individuals made to give their everything to try and be together tests their commitment. It’s in those moments of trial and tribulation that the very decision they made is second guessed and every flaw is exposed in the very foundation of the relationship.

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

It is also in these moments that another choice is brought to light, another fork in the road must be examined. Do these people continue to hold on to their original commitment and fight to remain together, or do they give in to the pressure closing in on them? Do the choose each other or choose to go on without the other?

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not, and who I am

It is only after the choice is made again to see the relationship through, to continue to fight for the love you promised to give, to not give up on just the other person involved in this promise, but to not give up on the collective you, the encompassing us, does that love continue to grow.

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up, I’m still looking up.

It is the next step after renewing the promise that counts the most.prove that you are giving all of your love, all of yourself to your significant other. Prove to not only just the other person, but to yourself as well that you are and always will be even if the skies get rough.

Well, I won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We’ve got a lot to learn (we’re alive, we are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (and we’re worth it)

Because God knows we’re worth it. God knows that our love is worth it.

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And continue to move forward together through every storm. Continue to choose each other and never hang your head in defeat. Give all of yourself to your commitment of love, and, God knows, it’s worth it.

I won’t give up by Jason Mraz

Oh, the thinks I am thinking.

My daughter loves one of Dr. Seuss’s books, “Oh, the thinks you can think.” As most Dr. Seuss books are, this one is full of silly rhymes and random items thrown together, but it is also a parent’s nightmare because of how all over the place it is. It jumps from simple questions to complex, compound sentences with a rhyme scheme that doesn’t exactly match the previous page. It’s hard to find a rhythm. Certainly, not one of my favorite Seussian books, but she enjoys it.oh-thinks-you-can-think-dr-seuss

It does makes me think (see what I did there?) of how in the world that man could come up with such crazy, yet coherent books that even children love. I then let that thought train spiral into what and how my brain thinks, how my thoughts are formed, and how I see the world. Do I see it in a mix array of things that are all thrown together and forced into insane yet manageable cohesiveness like Dr. Seuss?

Nahh. I’m more of a logical mind in the sense that everything has its place, but I will admit there are times where my brain processes and clumps thoughts together so effortlessly that even I sometimes feel lost on how the train got to that station.

Our minds are such curious things, and I think I’ve just learned to appreciate the genius in Dr. Seuss’s book. It’s like a challenge to not only the child reading the book, but to the adult. I think even Disney once said that “Even adults were children once.” Maybe they are both on to something. As we become adults, we may need a reminder to think more like children, with an open mind to all the thinks we can think.

Now I’m thinking of planning a trip to Disney. Where’d that train come from?

LuLaRoe Addicted

Hi, my name is Lindsay, and I am addicted to LuLaRoe. If you’ve never heard of LuLaRoe, please let me share my latest obsession with you!

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LuLaRoe is a direct sales clothing company which is structured a lot like Mary Kay or Nerium. Clothing is made and sold at wholesale to consultants who then sell to consumers for a marked up price. A consultant will place an order for X amount of a certain style and will receive a box of various sizes and prints in the selected style. The “neat” aspect of the company is that each print is only used for about 5,000 pieces, and with the help of Facebook, consultants use live stream and album sales to show off the clothing in a social media environment.

Even though I know the price is manipulated to cover costs of the product for the source company as well as for the consultant, I have absolutely fallen in love with shopping these products. No two consultants will have the exact same inventory which makes finding a beautiful piece that much more satisfying. If you love retail therapy, you will love this company and their clothing. Their leggings are the softest, most buttery like fabric I have ever felt, and I have yet to find an unflattering style. And honestly, I have had so much fun shopping at each event. What more could you ask for?

I have purchased two pair of leggings (one was Valentine’s themed), a Randy, and two Irmas. The Irmas have not arrived just yet, but I am so excited to receive them via USPS mail! I have never been one to purchase clothes for myself very often, but with this company, I just can’t seem to stop. Shhh! Don’t tell my husband!

Would Atlantis Want To Be Found?

This may be the rambling of an exhausted parent who just read an article about a lost continent being found in the Indian Ocean. You have been warned.lostcityofatlantis

In the article which I will provide the link of at the bottom of this post, they go on to say that a continent that broke off from the mega-land formation that was the earth’s land mass millions of years ago (they may have said billions, but my memory is fuzzy as my coffee wears off) was found in the Indian Ocean by comparing sediments which proved they were part of the same original land mass. Cool, but that’s not what caught my attention in the first place.

In the description of this article, the tagline says, “It’s not Atlantis, but a lost continent has been found.” Just from reading/hearing that tagline, my mind traveled to the animated Disney movie of Atlantis and the story of how/why they sank and were hidden from the world. Regardless of how/why Atlantis sank, if they could see the state of the world right now, would they want to be found? Would they want to become a part of this society as a whole, joining the human-race as we know it on the planet?

After years of been hidden, tucked away an unfazed by this overpopulated, information inundated, hustle and bustle world, would Atlantis want to be found?

I have a feeling that if Atlantis were real and still thriving somehow, they would take one look at us and re-sink their city. They’d have no desire to see our world, and they would be more than opposed to sharing theirs.

Hey, I warned you at the beginning that this exhausted mother wasn’t going to make any sense. I think I hear my pillow calling!

A lost continent has been discovered in the Indian Ocean

Black Sails – Season 4 Episode 1

Before my daughter was born, my husband and I would spend many hours binge watching television series and movies whenever we were experiencing bouts of laziness. I think we watched all four seasons of Breaking Bad in a week right before the fifth was airing. We were dedicated to say the least. During those early days of our marriage, we heard about a series called Black Sails on STARZ. Now if you know my husband you know he enjoys ninjas and pirates, typical guy, but when we researched and found out it was based on characters of Treasure Island and true pirate history, we knew we had to see it!black-sails-tv-series-on-starz-cancelled-no-season-five

Let me first say that this cast is full of beautiful people. I mean drop dead gorgeous men and women! The show is obviously supposed to take place before personal hygiene was ever a real concern, but even as greasy and dirty as some of the characters appear to be, it only adds to their sensuality. Tom Hopper, Luke Arnold, Zach McGowan, and even Toby Stephens are extremely gritty, tough men oozing with sex appeal. (Zach McGowan’s voice is so hot!) Hannah New and Jessica Parker Kennedy are beautiful and strong women who at times seem to have the upper hand on the men in their lives. (Jessica Parker Kennedy’s accent is sensual!) Clara Paget is a true pirate, but her moments of femininity show her for the true gorgeous woman she is.

The entire series has been building up to this season, and I am so sad that this fourth one will be its last. There aren’t any other pirate dramas on television that I am aware of, so for this storyline to be finished really hurts me! (That and the fact that most of the series we like are coming to end! *coughGOTcough*)

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When the Muse Calls

Tell me a story,

And I’ll read you a line

From the most divine

Poetry book.

Sing me a song,

And I’ll bring to you

A chorus of angels for

Your melody.

But follow me

As I show you the world,

And I’ll promise you

Forever.

When the muse strikes. I’m not much of a poetry writer, but sometimes the mood is right and the words flow easily. It’s funny what our muses convince us we do well, but I find I become even more stricken with a block if I try to ignore them. Best to just let it flow, my friends.

So words to the wise: don’t fight it. Just let it happen. You may be surprised with the outcome.

Have a great week all!

Weight Loss or Pizza

I feel silly that I even tried this, but I figured what could it hurt to try. Let’s jump back a few steps then I’ll tell you what I did.

phigyugqpvu-bruno-nascimento.jpgBefore I got pregnant, I had lost 30lbs, but after pregnancy and a few years later, I have that weight back plus 10. I hate it. I want to lose the weight again, but I don’t think I feel the same motivation as I did before for a couple of a reasons, nor do I have (or maybe even want to make) the time to prepare meals ahead of time.

Before I became pregnant, my willpower and desire to lose weight was so strong. I stuck to the diet so strictly and worked out just as astringently. I had such determination and grit. Now, not so much. After losing the weight and becoming pregnant, I ended up with gestational diabetes and on another strict diet to control my blood sugar. I didn’t mind the diet, but while pregnant, I wanted pizza so badly! I love my daughter more than pizza, so I stuck to the diet as much as I could and managed to keep my sugar in check then deliver a happy, average size baby! During that time of deprivation, though, I think budded this desire to eat all the foods I couldn’t have. Fast forward to now, and you see my problem. I missed chocolate and pizza!

Time on the other hand is honestly _0jpjeqtsyg-carissa-ganbecause of what I would rather do than cooking and preparing food. I’d rather be playing with my daughter, taking her places, experiencing the world with her than cooking. I’d rather watch a movie with my husband, write a novel, or go out with friends than Pyrex my meals for the week. Lastly, I’d much rather SLEEP than workout. Thus, my dilemma.

I did some research, and like a silly, desperate person, I ordered a diet fad pill called Nutri-Fast Garcinia and Braggs Apple Cider Vinegar. I tried so hard to drink the apple cider vinegar, but I just can’t make myself do it! I literally almost gag every time. I got it down this morning, but at lunch, I just couldn’t do it again. The pill is easy to take, but will it be enough? I’m trying to eat healthier, smaller portions, and I want to get back on my elliptical, but time is always against me. I have a stand-up desk at work now, so I’m hoping that will help as well, but I think I just need to bite the bullet, and find my motivation to just get it done! I know its possible, so I just need to want to do it. (But I’m giving up on the ACV.)

What are your weight loss secrets? Have you tried the apple cider vinegar trick?

Engineer Your Life

I’m feeling a little drained and dry recently. I just can’t get motivated for anything. Work has been hectic. I’m making my final push toward an October graduation. And the past two weeks, my daughter has had a cold. She’s doing a lot better now, and will finally be going to school for the first time in a week. Overall, life is happening, and I’m trying to keep up, but I don’t feel like I’m getting ahead. It’s more like I’m treading water or stuck on my hamster wheel.7kkqg0eb_ti-ankush-minda

I know I have absolutely nothing to worry about. My daughter, husband, friends and family brighten my days, and I am generally in a decent mood based on my coffee intake. I just feel like I’m holding on to the caboose of my life rather than engineering the front car.

I’ve said multiple times that I’m a glutton for punishment. I can’t help it. I like being busy, but this is one of those times I think I need to pull back, evaluate my commitments, and find my direct path rather than this haphazard road.

My advice to you, my friends: Be the engineer in your own life. Steer the train as directly as you can toward your goals and leave the rest behind.

Easier said than done, I’m finding, but as with anything, it’ll just take time, and a few more I think I can’s. Choo choo!

Please, Don’t Drink and Drive!

I’m going to go on a bit of a rant here, so you have been warned.cuc6e2rngiy-zachary-staines.jpg

My best friend of fifteen years died in a car accident six months ago due to a drunk driver, and a few days ago, my cousin and her husband were in a car accident caused by a drunk driver. My cousin and her husband are in the hospital. The husband is O.K. A few broken bones and bruises, but my cousin had to have surgery due to bones puncturing her organs and has various other broken bones such as her arm and leg. She’s out of surgery and breathing on her own, but she’ll be in the hospital for a while rather than spending time with her family.

I am so sick of this selfish act hurting my loved ones! Why do people think they are indestructible or that they won’t make a mistake and possibly injure or kill someone by driving drunk? Why is it so hard to call a cab? Why is it so hard not to over-drink, or to think ahead and have a designated sober driver, or to have a ride lined up for the end of the night? Why do people drive drunk?

I am beside myself trying to understand! I just can’t wrap my head around it. It is one of the easily avoidable tragedies in our modern world if only people care more about others than they do themselves. What are you so concerned about? Leaving your car somewhere over night? The inconvenience of having to go back and get it the next day? Well, first off, you should have thought of that ahead of time as a grown adult. Second, why can’t you see the greater risk of literally tearing not only your life apart, but others as well!

If you’ve made it this far, I thank you for sticking around. I don’t typically choose to go on tirades, but at this moment in time, my heart is hurting so much for those affected by this selfish act that I had to release it. Please, I beg of you, do not drive drunk. Even if you think you can make it home, please don’t.thisisatest

Maybe I should join MADD. Anyone have any information on this organization? I’ll definitely be starting my research tonight. Maybe I could create some sort of movement that would allow an insuranced driver to write off their taxi bill if they were in an inebriated state and couldn’t drive. Would that help? I’m not sure, but we have to start somewhere. Too many are taken too soon or injured too greatly not to try something!

I miss you.

I’ve never in my life missed someone as much as I miss my best friend of over fifteen years. Her squeal when she was excited, her laugh was absolutely contagious, what I wouldn’t give to hear them again. She was the tiniest ball of the largest energy who could always put a smile on my face, or help me kick some ass of whoever pissed me off. She was my sidekick and sane mind when I needed her, but she could always relate and never judged whatever was going on in my life.

I’ve never missed anyone more than I miss her. Some may say that I am punishing myself by watching videos or looking at pictures of me and her, but it’s the only way I know how to curve the absolute need to see and hear her voice again. 

I know people say it gets easier, but I’m more of the mind that you just learn how to live with it. I guess I just haven’t figure it out yet.