I’ve been on a deep kind of post kick recently. I blame it on my daughter. When you become a parent, it seems like that is when you really start to view the world differently. You go from someone who takes responsibility as it comes like Huckleberry Fin to someone who feels as if all responsibility is resting on your shoulders like Atlas attempting to hold up the world. It can be maddening how much you begin to worry about silly things that were never a concern before like food selection or toothbrushes.
It is only a very tiny, little smile that keeps you from plummeting off the edge of anxiety. A tiny, little giggle that swells your heart to let you know that you are making the right decisions. A tiny, little person who will wrap their arms so tightly around your neck in a heartbreakingly sweet hug. That tiny, little person that you fuss so much over to make sure they have everything they need or want in the world which seems to being spinning incessantly is exactly who keeps you firmly planted and moving in a straight line.
I wish I could spend my days with her. I wish I could be there for her every waking moment, but isn’t that everyone’s wish.
For more time.
It’s the one thing in this world that you can never get more of. It’s constantly ticking, constantly moving and counting down the very seconds of our lives. There is never a break in time, so we will never get a moment back even with all the money in the world.
Some people will argue that the real need/want in everyone’s life is time and money, but that just doesn’t seem right. Money is a real, tangible object where time isn’t. Money can be earned, can be spent, and can be earned back again in a constant circular flow, but time is linear in a single direction. You cannot earn more time. You cannot spend it, or make it go any faster. You certainly cannot gain it back.
Time is the one thing in my life that I think I will always wish I had more of. Sure, money would be nice, but more time to spend with my daughter, my husband, or other loved ones is what I will always want.